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Do you want to get well? “Cures” for the two most common viruses of 2020

I used these products to fight COVID-19.

By Heather Walton

Update: Interestingly, though I had had symptoms when I wrote this article, I ended up getting COVID a couple weeks later. I recommend the therapies here, because I believe a healthy immune system is key, and I used all of these remedies while I had the virus, and did not need prescription medications. In the end, we can do all we can do, but realize that ultimately, we are not in control.

Although I am not convinced that COVID-19 is as serious as the powers that be would have us believe, and although I don’t fear this virus, that doesn’t mean I’m eager to get it. I’ve done a decent amount of research regarding how to stay clear of it, and how to fight it off quickly if one contracts it. About a year ago, I started taking Zeal, a nutritional drink that contains many incredible ingredients, including Vitamin D. Prior to taking Zeal, I was diagnosed with Vitamin D deficiency. I was taking traditional supplements but not seeing results. After being on Zeal for a few months, I had to discontinue my other Vitamin D because I was actually testing over the suggested range. Zeal has many other beneficial ingredients, many of which can’t be easily found in a regular diet. Okay, so that may sound like a commercial, and it actually is, because my husband is a marketer, but I haven’t pushed it at all in the past. After over a year of faithfully taking it, though, I am a believer.

I also have recently started taking a few other supplements, and I actually add most of them to my Zeal to create what I call a Cover “Cure” Cocktail.

I strongly believe in the power of a healthy diet and plant-based medicine. I get most of my essential oils and homeopathic remedies from Butterfly Express, because this company carries high-quality products and a great variety at a fraction of the cost of some of the industry leaders. I have been taking their IF (Infection Fighter) Tincture (about 5-10 drops twice a day) and on days I feel congested, I add a few drops of BRON.

Recently I also read that frankincense is great at combatting viruses and may help keep one from developing COVID-19, and lessen the symptoms. So I started adding one drop a day to my “cocktail.”

I also had early on heard from a retired doctor that iodine was a sure cure for COVID. I didn’t know whether to believe him or not, but I bought some, just in case. Follow-up research showed that, indeed, iodine can kill the virus in 15 seconds. (Iodine Solution Can Kill Coronavirus in Less Than a Minute, Says Study | Science Times, Iodine solution may help prevent spread of COVID-19: New study (thehealthsite.com) )

On Christmas afternoon I began feeling sick to my stomach, so much so that I cancelled plans with family that evening. I didn’t think much of it, except that it seemed a little odd to become suddenly sick in the middle of the day. I figured I must have eaten something that hadn’t agreed with me. I noticed I was rather tired as well, so I got a heating pad, and my castor oil pack and took a little nap. The rest of the evening I felt mildly nauseated, but that was it.

The next morning I awoke with a mild sore throat, chest pressure, and an acute sense that something was off. There was a candy cane on my nightstand, which I decided to see if I could taste. It was such an odd sensation, because I couldn’t taste it at all. I got up, took my temperature, which was normal, and set out on a quest to taste something. I couldn’t even taste the frankincense in my Zeal, which, trust me, is hard to miss!

I also read that the two smells people who have COVID-related lack of smell are coconut oil and peppermint. I tried both, and could smell neither. I started researching natural cures for COVID and scheduled a test for that afternoon. The two additional research-backed treatments I found were hydrogen peroxide (Is 0.5% hydrogen peroxide effective against SARS‐CoV‐2? – Ortega – – Oral Diseases – Wiley Online Library, Hydrogen Peroxide As Treatment For Coronavirus Infection: Does It Work? (medicaldaily.com), and xylitol with grape seed extract (GSE) (Xylitol and grapefruit seed extract shows promise in preventing SARS-CoV-2 infection, study finds (news-medical.net), Cureus | Potential Role of Xylitol Plus Grapefruit Seed Extract Nasal Spray Solution in COVID-19: Case Series, Xylitol and grapefruit seed extract nasal spray could help COVID-19 patients (news-medical.net), so I tracked them down at a local health food store, and my husband picked them up curbside, along with elderberry syrup enhanced with Vitamin C and zinc. I took one treatment of each, along with one nebulizer treatment with colloidal silver and a dose of V-Clear, and left for my test a few hours later, fully expecting to receive a positive test.

You can imagine my surprise at getting a negative result!

Not only that, I began feeling better, and by the next morning, I felt better than I had before having symptoms. Of course I can’t confirm that I actually had the virus, but I did have some compelling symptoms, and after using research-based treatments, I both tested negative and felt better.

I fully believe the best defense against this virus, and any other sickness, is a good offense. Food, exercise, supplements, and an overall healthy lifestyle are the best deterrents, but I’d also advise having some of these things on hand in case you develop symptoms.

We don’t know what, if any, the long-term effects of this illness could be, and I for one, would rather not take the risk. However, there is a worse plague than Covid-19 that we should consider — and this one has definite consequences and an absolute proven cure. That is the “virus,” or rather the “congenital-defect” of every human heart — it’s 100% fatal unless the antidote is applied.

SIN

Romans 3:10 tells us that “the wages of sin is death but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord.” Every one of us has transgressed God’s rules for life in some way or another, and for most of us, in many, many ways. The penalty for sin is eternal separation from God in hell, from which there is no escape. However, Jesus willingly came to earth, lived a perfect life, went to the cross to bear our sins, and rose from the grave, proving He is God and that He has the authority to forgive our sins. His triumph over the grave can be ours, provided we accept this free offer to take away our sins. In exchange, we must repent, which means to agree with God about our sin and to turn the other direction, accept His Lordship over our lives, and follow Him. We cannot do good works to earn our place in heaven or to have a relationship with the Lord, but we will do good things in response to His work in our lives. When we accept the Lord, we receive the Holy Spirit, who comes to live within us as a seal of God’s covenant with us, and enables us to live the life God wills for us. We will not be perfect till we exit this life and enter heaven, but we will progress in holiness throughout our lives as we await the redemption of our bodies. When we do enter His presence, we will be given renewed bodies that will never have to worry about any sickness, any sin, any evil, or any thing ever again.

If you have not committed your life to Christ, I urge you to do so. This world is passing away. No matter how much we try to control this virus, eventually we will leave this life and pass on to the next. At that point, it will be too late for the cure and our eternal fate will be decided.

I hope this article will benefit someone with regard to coronavirus, but even more, I hope that, if you don’t know the Lord, you will accept the cure for sin today.

It’s all about control

By Heather Walton

We need to protect the most vulnerable.

We must protect our Constitutional rights.

Where is my unemployment?

I will not wear a mask!

It’s my body, and my choice.

Everyone needs to take the vaccine before we can get back to normal.

I will not take a vaccine.

Answer the phone when the health department calls, and cooperate with the contact tracers.

I will not answer the phone. In fact, I’m not doing any updates on my phone and I’ll leave it at home when I go out. 

You don’t value my life!

You don’t value my livelihood!

Since the beginning of the human race, it’s been about control. Did God really say you should not eat of any tree in the garden? … He knows that when you eat of it, you’ll be like God, knowing good and evil (Genesis 3). In other words, He is in control, but if you eat this fruit, you can be in control.

Our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but the enemy of old, Satan, sure wants us to think it is (Ephesians 6:12). We get angry because we want to be in control. We fear because we want to be in control.

Guess what: we are NOT in control! We never have been. It’s an illusion. God is in control, but He has temporarily allowed Satan to be in control of certain aspects of the world (Matthew 4:8-9; Luke 4:5-6; John 14:30; John 12:31-33; Ephesians 2:1-3). I believe that the “spirit of the antichrist” which has been in the world since the beginning, is largely a spirit of control (1 John 2:18; 1 John 4:3). Satan himself, as Lucifer, fell from heaven because he wanted to be in control, rather than trusting God to be in control (Isaiah 14:12-15; Luke 10:18).

When we allow God to be in control of our lives (Romans 10:9-11) by accepting Jesus as Lord (master, one in charge), we gain a peace that passes all understanding (Philippians 4:7). The very things we desire to have control for — peace, provision, victory over death — we gain by giving up control. It seems like a paradox, doesn’t it? However, it is true.

The spirit of the antichrist may soon be revealed as world leaders navigate this global crisis (2 Thessalonians 2:1-12; 1 John 2:18). They have a global answer: They believe we need to seek world peace through a concept called globalism. They believe all people need to unite to end world hunger, poverty, inequality, illiteracy, “overpopulation,” and so on; however, God called us to scatter, to fill the earth and subdue it. Granted, our greed has tempted us to become bad stewards of the earth and to oppress people. That doesn’t change the fact that God wills us to populate, to work, and to be diverse. At the tower of Babel, the people wanted to stick together. They defied God by building a tower, not so they could reach heaven, but so they could keep from wandering too far. God had told them to scatter, but they reasoned that if they could build a tall enough tower, they could make sure that they could all see it, and that way they wouldn’t go too far. They would stay one global community, in defiance of God’s clear command to spread out. He confounded their language so that they would not remain together (Genesis 11).

Today, some of the world’s most powerful people want to control the world once again by uniting us all in a global community. This global crisis calls for a global solution, they say. They want control, pure and simple. Their motives may look noble and pure, but in reality, they don’t trust God. Did God really say? Is there really even a God? Don’t you know that we can do anything we set our minds to? 

Many people believe would agree with Bill Gates:

“I’ve been very lucky, and therefore I owe it to try and reduce the inequity in the world. And that’s kind of a religious belief. I mean, it’s at least a moral belief,” said Gates. “I agree with people like Richard Dawkins that mankind felt the need for creation myths. Before we really began to understand disease and the weather and things like that, we sought false explanations for them. Now science has filled in some of the realm – not all – that religion used to fill.” (Rolling Stone, March 13, 2014)

You see, if science is the answer, we can control that. We can’t control God, but we can, at least in some ways, control science. We can control what we understand, but we cannot understand God because His ways are so far above our ways that they are beyond comprehension (Isaiah 55:8-9). We don’t like that. We want to understand. We want to know. We want to control.

We cannot control, but we can put our lives in the hands of the One who is in control, the One who can give us the abundant life now and eternal life when we die (Deuteronomy 30:19; Joshua 24:15; John 3:16-17; John 10:9-10).

It seems to me that so many of us are addressing the things we can’t control and are angry at those who seem to hinder our control. In the end, though, we are all going to die and our fortunes will be given to another (Psalm 39:6; Psalm 49:10; Proverbs 27:1; Luke 12). We aren’t guaranteed our next breath or our next paycheck, no matter how hard we try. We should take good care of our bodies, we should work hard to earn a living, and we should try to keep our country free from tyranny. However, we also must recognize that our days are numbered and the world can change in a moment’s notice. We could literally be ushered into the presence of our Creator at any moment. We need to be ready.

The one thing we can do to control our future is to put our lives and our eternity into the hands of the One who possesses ultimate control.

If you have never accepted Jesus as Lord, you can do that right now. This takes an honest and genuine acknowledgement that you are a sinner, that you can’t do enough good deeds to be right with God because He is holy and we are unholy, that you need Him to save you, and that you are willing to follow Him and allow Him to govern your life. Baptism is the outward expression of this inward decision and should be done publicly and by immersion, in an act of obedience, submission, and testimonial to others. You also should read the Bible, pray, gather with other believers, and obey God’s commands, not to be saved, but out of gratitude for salvation, a desire to grow in your relationship with God, and in hopes of winning others to the Lord. If you have any questions about that, reach out to a believer you know, begin fellowship with a local church, and/or reach out by filling out the contact form below.  

An Open Letter to Gov. Andy Beshear

May 11, 2020

Governor Beshear,

I want to begin by saying that, for the first several weeks of your COVID-19 response, I was one of your strongest supporters. I watched your briefings every day and I was quite impressed with your handling of the situation. I also noted that you used your faith to support your reasoning, and I believed you used it well. I truly appreciated your desire to protect the lives of all Kentuckians, even those many seemed to discount as less important than the economy. I did wonder, however, why the abortion clinics were allowed to remain open. Even so, I supported you in the rest of your response measures. I defended you on social media multiple times and I used the hashtags you asked us to use. To this day, we turn on our green light nightly to honor those who have died of the coronavirus.

I was disheartened to make a possible connection between campaign contributions and your refusal to close the clinics, but when you chose to veto SB9, which would require babies who survived to be cared for, I was astonished. This bill passed by a landslide and had clear bipartisan support. You reasoned that this would reduce our unity and ability to defeat the coronavirus and reopening of the economy. However, if every Kentucky life matters, it’s worth doing, even if it’s not popular, could cause law suits, or could hinder reopening the economy. Isn’t this the very thing you have done and continue to do in the COVID-19 response? You have said you don’t care if it’s popular, you don’t care if people disagree, and you don’t care if people sue you. You also have been willing to keep our economy shut down indefinitely. I realize you’re doing some reopening, but it’s really not very quick and it’s also not highly practical. Your argument has consistently been that we need to save as many Kentucky lives as possible. In fact, you’ve been willing to do absolutely everything, including allowing many businesses to close permanently and overriding the First Amendment rights of our citizenry, to make sure that our losses are as minimal as possible.

You have cited your faith many times. Therefore, I feel compelled to tell you what is on my heart as a believer. The blood of many, many children is on your hands. You have accepted blood money from Planned Parenthood and from abortion clinic owners Ernest and Ona Marshall, and likely many others who practice and champion abortion. Even without the veto, you support abortion. You may argue that there need to be exceptions for the life and health of the mother, but as one who had to have a pregnancy terminated because of the baby implanted ectopically, I did not need to go to an abortion clinic, and would not have been able to have been serviced there.

Abortion is murder, as God has created each life. Most abortions are the result of previous sin, whether from the mother, the father, or usually both. Taking a child’s life because of his parents’ sins is not ethical, moral, or Scriptural. So when you vetoed SB9, I woke as if from sleeping and began to question why you are willing to inconvenience so many and even devastate some on the grounds of caring for all Kentuckians, yet far more have died through abortion than from the coronavirus. At first, it seemed these measures were necessary, but as we’ve learned more, it just doesn’t add up. I’m willing to believe you began with the best of intentions regarding the COVID-19 response, but now, why not go ahead and open up the economy, allow people to resume church services as normal, and allow us to get back to what hopefully will be a new and better normal?

I also have concerns about your handling of churches. Biblically, we are not to forsake the assembling of ourselves together. It’s great that we are able to have online services, but that’s simply not the same as meeting in person. And being told not to even sing together is disheartening. Being told not to meet together, sing together, or participate in sacraments goes directly against Scripture. If this were as bad as health officials originally had projected, I would be more open to the idea of church being conducted alternatively, but I would also expect most other organizations and businesses to be closed. If I can’t go to church and worship in the normal way, I also shouldn’t be able to go to an abortion clinic, a liquor store, or a hardware store.

I work hard to be respectful and pleasant toward those with whom I disagree, but I don’t believe in shying away from the truth, because the truth sets us free. No law can take away our freedom in Christ, but it’s still crucial that Christ followers petition the authorities when injustice prevails. There are clear injustices when some human lives are considered expendable or less valuable than others, and there are clear injustices when people’s livelihoods are lost due to excessive government control.

After the fall of man, God commanded Adam and Eve to fill the earth and subdue it. These are related to two main realms – childbearing and work. Your actions affect each of these in the opposite ways that God intended, because you are allowing childbearing to be unnaturally restrained, while not allowing people to work. Please prayerfully read the Scriptures. I ask you, on behalf of all citizens of Kentucky, to change your stance on abortion, to fully open Kentucky’s churches, and to allow Kentuckians to go back to work. There are ways to protect the vulnerable that don’t require so many others to suffer in countless ways.

I am praying for you, and am open to discussing this with you if you would like to.

Sincerely,

Heather Walton

 

 

COVID-19: Has it changed the world?

By Heather Walton

A week ago at this time I honestly wondered what all the hype was about. I questioned whether people were overreacting. Later that evening, after hearing from the president and the local school superintendent, and learning that our local megachurch was closing, I began to reconsider my perspective.

I think most of us have been impacted in some way by this crisis. At minimum, most of us have had some change to our routines and give up our freedom to go where we want. It seems a bit surreal for many. Depending on your perspective, you could be stir crazy, frustrated, skeptical, anxious, relieved, refreshed, or maybe all of these things in the same day! And if you have children, they may be struggling too, especially if their routines have been majorly disrupted.

As a homeschooler and as one who works from home, my family’s life has not been as disrupted as many people’s have. We have had changes though: My husband is a pastor, so a family whose lives are intertwined with church, that aspect has looked very different. He also works for the school system, so he’s been home this week, which I have found refreshing. I also have moved my regular students and my tutoring clients to an online platform, rather than having them come into my home.

The biggest issue for me has been that I personally have been sick for the past few days. Today I developed a fever, so my doctor sent me for COVID-19 testing. They say it will be a week or so before I get the results. A week ago, getting sick with this virus was the furthest thing from my mind.

While all of this is unexpected and somewhat unsettling, I don’t think the world has actually changed. Yes, it feels different, but I think that’s largely because, a week ago, it felt like we were in control, and today not so much. The truth is, though, that control is an illusion, at least as far as we’re concerned. However, God is always on His throne and in control of the universe — always. Nothing occurs that He doesn’t allow. And nothing catches Him by surprise.

No, I don’t think the world has changed. I think it has been exposed for what it is: a temporary, unpredictable home. It hasn’t changed, but perhaps we can change as a result of this revelation. Perhaps we can change for the better. Maybe we can value relationships more fully, worship God more fervently, serve our neighbors more intentionally, worry less, and simply live the life God has graciously allowed us to live, for however long that will be. Most importantly, maybe we will consider the fact that this home truly is temporary, and therefore prepare for our eternal home by accepting Christ as Lord and following Him, who has control of everything, rather than the crowd, which truly has control of nothing.

Blessed by a Brush with Death

A year ago today I had a life-changing experience. After Emma was born, I started having intense headaches and odd symptoms. I went to the hospital four times, with no answers. But on Dec. 29, 2016, I had the worst headache of my life, and I couldn’t keep my eyes open if there were lights on in the room. I went to the doctor, and he sent me over to the ER. After sitting in the waiting room for two hours, I was tempted to go back home, but I believe the Holy Spirit told me to stay a little longer. A nurse came out and told all of us that all 30 ER beds were full, that there were about 30 of us waiting, and that there were only three doctors on staff. I found out I was triaged at number 24. Yet I stayed. In minutes, the ER cleared out and I was called back.

I laid there for hours in a darkened room with not much in the way of treatment. My husband’s face began to look distorted. I had to reach out and touch him to be sure he was really there. I could almost see through him. I truly thought this was my last day on earth. I had a five-day-old baby, and a husband of less than two years. I prayed that God would spare me for their sakes.

I began seeing a pinwheel and some geometric solids in various colors. I told the nurse, who     asked, “Have you ever had a seizure?” I hadn’t, and I was too tired and disoriented to worry much about what she said, but I still felt quite sure that my time on earth was short.

Eventually I was given a series of tests. The last thing I remember was being wheeled to an elevator after the tests were complete.

I woke up about four hours later to a bunch of people circled around my bed. A nurse started asking me strange questions, such as, “What year is it? What’s your name? Who is the president of the United States?” She informed me that I had had a seizure. I later learned that the seizure was triggered by a brain hemorrhage, which was the result of a rare condition called Posterior Reversible Encephalopathy Syndrome (PRES). I truly could have died, and very well may have, had I not listened to the nudge of the Holy Spirit to stay and wait.

In the days and weeks that followed, it took awhile to recover. And just when I thought I was ready to go back to work, I broke my ankle. In August, I was hospitalized with sepsis, another life-threatening experience. I still haven’t recovered from all the things I’ve been faced with this year.

So what have I learned? For one thing, I know not to take life or health for granted. Though I’m ready for heaven, I’m grateful that God has allowed me to have this time to take care of my family and to serve Him on the earth. I also have learned empathy for people who have medical issues and physical limitations.

The most profound lesson has been that I indeed have limitations and that I must not burn the candle at both ends. I must make time to rest and to care for myself. Otherwise, I may not be here to see my children grow up.

As we get ready to enter the new year, I am working on taking better care of myself than I ever have, and I am cherishing the time I have to minister to my family and to others. A year ago, I was convinced I wouldn’t have another day to live, but God has graciously given me a whole year! What a blessing! There was a time when that didn’t mean much to me, but coming close to death changes one’s life profoundly. Though it seemed like a terrible thing at the time, my brush with death has blessed me beyond measure.

 

 

 

 

The Sifting

We don’t know how much time we have, but if we relax and listen to God, if we are still enough and if we acknowledge that He is in control (Psalm 46:10), then we can trust that there truly is enough time for His plan to unfold in His timing. We don’t have to be stressed, to overanalyze, to force things, or to make things happen. We can listen to His voice and follow His plan, and if we do mess up, we can trust Him with that too. He is able, more than able, to handle anything that comes our way.

This is a lesson I have had to learn over time. God has graciously been teaching me in many ways. He has sent wise people into my life to gently attempt to steer me the right way. He has given me His Word and His Spirit. He has allowed me to see the positive and negative outcomes of others’ decisions and lifestyles. Yet, like most people, I’m a hands-on learner. The most powerful way I’ve learned the hard lessons has been through my circumstances. And like many other people, I’m also a slow learner, so I haven’t learned through the first hard thing, or the second, or the third. No, it’s taken several serious difficulties to get my attention.

A little more than two years ago, I was watching a Beth Moore Bible study, in which she discussed a period of “sifting” that took place right before her public ministry took off. As soon as she finished relating her sifting journey, I heard the still, small voice of the Holy Spirit say, “You’re about to be sifted.” Honestly, I didn’t think too much about it at the time, but I did take it seriously.

Within two weeks, I discovered I had a life-threatening and heart-breaking ectopic pregnancy and had to have emergency surgery. During the following year, I had many struggles in my full-time ministry. It seemed we were relentlessly attacked by the enemy. The next year I became pregnant again, and we now have a healthy, sweet baby girl, but I developed a postpartum condition called PRES, which involved a blood pressure spike, a brain hemorrhage, a Grand Mal seizure, and many after effects, and which also kept me away from my ministry for longer than anticipated. When I returned to work, I fell and broke my ankle within a week and had to sit out for another couple of weeks. Since then, I’ve had simple partial seizures on a regular basis.

Through all of this, I kept hearing God say, “Be still and know that I am God.” And I kept saying, “Yes, God, I will.” And I kept returning to the hamster wheel of being busy and thinking I had to do it all myself.

At the end of the school year, circumstances made it clear to me that it was time to move on from the ministry that I had founded four years earlier. This was not what I had planned, but I knew it was the right thing. The timing seemed bad,  but in retrospect, I can see God at work.

Again, I could hear God say, “Be still and know that I am God.” And I said, “Yes, God, I’m going to take the summer to be still. Just let me put in my resumes and I’ll be still right after that.” OK, so I didn’t exactly say that, but that’s what I did. I put in resumes the day after I resigned. I had four interviews and had three offers within a week. I accepted a position at a wonderful school and was so excited, and then I proceeded to be still–relatively at least. And it was a good thing, because God really did have an opportunity to speak to me over the summer, because I could finally hear Him. I was going at a more reasonable pace, and it felt good. I had time for relationships–both with God and others.

But there was something nagging at my soul. I kept hearing, “Be still and know that I am God.”

And then last Thursday happened. I suddenly ended up in the ER, wondering once again if I would live to see another day. And then it clicked. It’s time to “be still and know that (He is) God.” He wants me to slow down, take care of myself, pay attention to the people closest to me, and listen to His voice before making major decisions. He wants me to have enough time to be in His Word regularly so I can learn from Him. He wants me to let go of my pride and impulsivity and self-sufficiency, because He is my all in all and He can take care of every detail of my life. There is nothing He can’t handle, so He doesn’t need me to take over His position. He simply wants me to accept His provision and direction.

He wants me to stop doing, and start being, so He can stop sifting.

Finding Freedom from a Frazzled Fate

By Heather Walton

Author’s Note: I wrote this originally in June, just before resigning from a ministry I founded. Since then, I have continued a quest to learn how to live authentically and passionately to fulfill God’s purposes, and His alone.

God does not call us to live frazzled lives. He calls us to peace, to quietness, to prayerfulness. It has often been said that if the devil can’t make us bad, he’ll make us busy. Why? When we’re too busy, we can’t even hear God guiding us, and we make decisions, big and small, in our own strength and intelligence, rather than in the wisdom and foreknowledge of God.

We think we are making decisions in God’s will, because they seem to be Godly decisions. And even if they’re not, we can justify those decisions as Godly because we do not know the Scriptures or the power of God (Matthew 22:29). When we are spiritually anemic, it’s pretty easy to think we are doing God’s will when we are not.

I have been in full-time Christian ministry for four years. During that time, I have gone from running a ministry in the power of the Spirit to the ministry running me, draining me of power I don’t even possess. The result—there is some fruit because God’s Word will not come back void; however, the main result is that I am burned out, I have no joy from this ministry anymore, and this ministry isn’t as effective as it once was or as it could be. Not only that, but I regularly neglect my family. So, can I really call it ministry?

Why are so many Christians and churches virtually ineffective? Because there is little to no time for relationships. We go to church like it’s a club—we get to see some of the same people week after week, but do we KNOW those people? For the most part, no we do not. People don’t let us into their lives because our relationships are inauthentic. We don’t have TIME for real relationships. We are too busy!

It’s time to change the tide. I can’t do it all and do any of it well, much less all of it well. I’m exhausted physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. And I’m teaching my children to imitate me. That may be the biggest reason to slow down the pace: I am to live in such a way that I can say to my children, “Follow me as I follow Christ.” (1 Corinthians 11:1). But I can’t possibly say that. I don’t want my kids to live the way I do. I don’t want them frazzled and ineffective. I want them to have time for daily Bible study and prayer time. I want them to have some down time. When they have families of their own, I want them to spend both quality and quantity time with their spouses and children. I want them to be able to sleep at night. I want them to be able to be “all there” for their relationships.

One of my life verses is Psalm 46:10, which says, “Be still and know that I am God.” Some translations replace “Be still,” with “Cease striving,” or “Relax.” For much of my life, the past two years included, I have felt the need to go at a frenetic pace. I have worked so hard to do a good job for God. But that’s not what God requires. He wants us to be still, to cease striving, to relax—not to slack off—but to rely on Him to do the work through us. Yes, He wants us to work with all of our hearts, but certainly He doesn’t expect us to make bricks with no straw.

“My yoke is easy and my burden is light,” Jesus said. (Matthew 11:30). These days my yoke feels cumbersome and my burden feels like a ton of bricks. The Lord calls us to work with all of our hearts, as working for the Lord, not for men. Part of my problem is that, in many ways, I have been working for men. I have been trying to keep people happy, and in doing so, I have lost the time and energy to seek the face of God regarding the ministry with which He has entrusted me.

I’m ready for an easy yoke, a light burden, a passion for ministry, a renewed enthusiasm for my relationship with the Lord, and more time and energy for my family. I’m exhausted. It’s time to rest. I’m suffocating. It’s time to breathe. I’m parched. It’s time to drink from the well of living water, the well that never runs dry.

Like the disciples on the road to Emmaus, I find myself thinking, “He was with me all along and I didn’t recognize Him!”

 

 

Rest and Call for Help

By Heather Walton

Today I sit in a hospital bed. Again. In the past three years, I have been hospitalized for life-threatening conditions multiple times. One of my life verses is Psalm 46:10, not because I’m good at being still, but because I’m very, very, very bad at it. So over these past few years the Lord has taken the liberty of requiring me to “be still and know that (He is) God.” Directly in front of my bed, there’s a board with information, such as the nurses’ names and my room number. It has these instructions written in the middle:

  • Rest
  • Call for Help

Looks like a paraphrase of Psalm 46:10 to me.

Oh, and to drive the point home, there’s an alarm on my bed so if I ignore the sign and try to do anything on my own, everyone within a three-mile radius will know and someone from the hospital staff will come to my aid. Know how I know this? Because I just tried to get up and get something a few feet from my bed. No independence for me today.

I have read several blog posts lately from people who are deciding to get off the first-world roller coaster of frazzled living. I believe I’m ready to join them. I’ve been so afraid of missing out on something that I may be missing my life. My real life. You know, the one with the relationships. The one with the family. With the game nights, the read alouds, the good-night prayers, the walks in the park, the Bible studies, the journaling, the bubble baths, the long talks that take you down a million windy paths, that kind of stuff.

I tend to be an independent person. But after an ectopic pregnancy, a brain hemorrhage, a broken ankle, and epilepsy … well, it’s harder and harder to be independent stubborn. I’m learning that it’s necessary to be both dependent on God and interdependent with those close to me.

First world life has lots of conveniences, but I believe our conveniences have complicated our lives and weakened our relationships. Many of us live such fast-paced lives that we watch it all go by in a blur. I’m ready to get off the roller coaster and enjoy a walk in the park. And maybe, just maybe, sit down on a park bench and enjoy the view for awhile.